Monday, October 29, 2007
back again.... after a long absence.... well, i'll try to update a bit on my life.... coming almost to 3 months on this job. doing pretty ok, not too bad.... but still have about 3 more months to go before my confirmation.... anything can happen till then but i'll juz do my best =)
went to Cherating Kuantan last 2 fridays ago with all the malay colleagues. to be honest, i was a bit hesitant to go on the trip.. i didn't really mix around with them and was uneasy at the thought of spending 3 days together with relatively unknown people... but my doubts were unfounded... I had a blast with this group.. had fun with them. crazy bunch of peeps... especially the 2 guys that i shared my room with, keyzan and zack... haha.. you can say that i bonded quite abit with them and also the rest of the "singles" in the group... most of them girls lah ;) haha... but don't worry, being the innocent guy that i am, i kept my distance from them.... heh...
with my roomies
kak feza!
told you i "kept myself away" from the girls... haha
the whole group!
work is stressful as usual.... calling up and emailing exhibition organisers can be such a pain in the arse... some of them can be so ridiculously difficult to work with that i feel like whacking them sometimes.... although i know i can't do that.... cause its not professional and some of them are simply too far away for me to whack... imagine thailand, vietnam etc... haha... we are still some way off our target... and the clock is ticking down always.... but its a great experience for me, doing something that i've never done or learnt before. thats always good, learning something new. my only worry is whether i am able to perform and meet up to people's expectation.... cause sometimes i juz feel that people expect abit too much of me... wrong, i think most of the time.... many people think too highly of me... and i don't know why... i'm juz a normal dude trying to survive, trying to be accepted.... but they think i'm some kind of fantastic worker, able to perform miracles.... and i'm always afraid if i fail, that these people will be extremely disappointed.... oh wells....
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Friday, October 12, 2007
am totally stressed out now.... suddenly i'm now way deep into the marketing dept stuff... due to the sudden departure of the previous marketing guys, my manager and myself have had to fill in the void... bloody hell... i juz can't stop thinking bout work... i even dreamt of work during my sleep... been making phone calls non stop to organisers based in countries such as Thailand, Malaysia, Indonesia and even Hong Kong for the past week... staying back late when everyone else has left almost every single day.... and yet i still don't see the results coming... there are a few deals here and there but mostly its been rejections or lots of follow up....
today i got totally pissed off with this thai lady who had promised me previously in our teleconversation... then juz when i was about to go home for the final "break fast" with my family, she sent an email over saying that she had second thoughts.... wth... totally spoiled my mood... had to stay back yet again juz to call her and to find out her concerns..... in the end i got home late.... it really looks bleak from where i see it... well, i can only hope and pray for the best....
I read one of the papers today... one article which caught my eye was the one where the parents of some school are complaining about the fact that their kids were performing badly in maths.... and who do they blame? the maths teacher of course.... definately it had to be the teacher... who else could it be? even though their child might be slow, the fault is definately with the teacher... even if the child is lazy, of course the teacher muz be blamed.... why can't these bloody people juz grow up.. even if the fault lies with them or their own child, they will always put the blame on others... its really sad to see this happening in our society....
where teachers used to command huge amounts of respect, now they are blamed for things that are not even in their control.... these people are the ones who shape the future of our country.... they take shit from everyone and still they continue doing what they do, day in and day out.... what more can you ask for from them?
i honestly can understand what some of these parents are feeling... they want the best for their child and they are worried.... but putting the blame on the teacher by saying that she/he did not put in more effort in a particular section is ridiculous.... I used to fail my maths all the time from sec 1 all the way to sec 4... it was not for a lack of effort from my teachers... i was simply too weak in it.... in fact my teachers always put in the extra effort to try to push me.... well, their efforts was not in vain... i got a b3 for my Os.... i know its nothing to some of you but to me its a big deal....
sometimes i juz feel that the more sophisticated our society becomes, the more stupid they become too.... then again, this is juz my opinion... you make your own judgement....
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10/12/2007 09:38:00 pm
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